Impact

Experiment time. Take an object that has ten kilograms of mass. Lift it to a height of one meter. Then, drop it. The impact that is made is consolidated and strong. Now break that ten kilogram object apart to create ten equal sized one kilogram objects. Take them all to a height of one meter and drop them. The impact as a cumulative whole is the same but now it hits in ten places with one tenth of the impact at each individual place.

Lets abstract this back to people and see how the impact is spread. I am the object. I have ten hours of time to spend. If I spend all ten on one person the impact of that one person is significant. The relationship grows and I invest heavily on that one person. Now lets say that I split my ten hours up between ten different people. Yes I spend time with more different people but the impact is lessened. Do I still have the same cumulative impact? I am beginning to believe that the cumulative impact is lessened because of people's perceptions of worth.

When someone invites me to go spend time with them at nearly any activity, I get excited. I feel valued. Then when I find out that the same blanket message was sent to nine other people, I feel like a number instead of a person. Personally, I normally completely shy away from any activity where I am spending time with someone in a confined time frame of less than one hour. The impact is so small and shallow, I'd rather spend the time alone.

Doubt

To jump right into it, is it possible that everything that is possible happens? In a quantum world, the possibilities happen for sure but do the outcomes of the possibilities happen just in different universes? If so then all things that have happened to me and been coincidental happen in the universe I am in but in others they didn't occur what so ever. I wonder what my views are in those universes...

Things that are impossible however do not happen. Such as a whale falling on my head right now. That is impossible but where is this line drawn between possible and impossible? Is it impossible for something to come from nothing? If so then is the Big Bang impossible? Because if so, even with every possibility happening, I still wouldn't be here.

All that being said, I'm glad I am in the one that I am in. A part of me is sad for the other me-s in other universes. They probably aren't remotely as happy as I am. There is probably another one of me in another universe writing a much more sad blog, wishing he were in another universe.

Sucker.