Experiences

What does the universe have in store for us all? We have these experiences, moments in time with other people. Each not only fun, pleasant, terrifying, or funny but something more. No word truly can explain this memory of something. Something so special that even attempting to clothe it with words seems a detestable action. The memory touches the fringe but hopelessly goes blank on the edge of the true glory then suddenly picks up on the other side.

I close my eyes and without thought these moments flood my endless black world with color. So vivid that I believe I have fallen asleep when I open my eyes in the middle of the night to a completely dark room. "This can't be the real world when that other was so real.

Many of these memories are with many different faces at my side. How am I supposed to handle on going relations with these people? Live life and see how far apart it takes us or how close it brings us? Should I cling to these memories as 'The Giver' does to refresh my mind on what true hurt, joy, color, and hunger is? Is it possible to keep the memory without the characters active in my life?

The struggle is that time must be spent remembering the past to learn, decide, and refresh but also not spend too much time away from the future. One thing that I do know is that at this moment in the here and now, I am amazed.

One blade of grass is enough to amaze me for an age. Our bodies filter out so much or what we see and experience because it is all too much. When what many of us really need and are fighting for is to remove this filter for a short period of time every now and then. Really see and realize how we are surrounded by incredible sights and sounds that are so extraordinarily powerful that we have to filter it to protect ourselves from exploding.

The sun rays are falling down all around people in Japan, China, Laos, Burma, India. Each ray containing trillions or photons. Warming the face and shoulders of some person worrying about their life, family, and friends on their way to lunch. Take another drag of your cigarette sir. Hope that everything turns out for the better with them. I'm thinking about each one as well. And you. You should stop smoking. It won't help anything in the long run and will actually make it worse. As he ties his shoes these photons bounce deep into his pupils which become as wide as the horizon as they draw near. The blackness envelops them and he begins to vividly remember the experiences of his past.

I hope he starts blogging soon.